Am I really THAT Stupid???

Sometimes when you ponder these types of questions the answer seems rather obvious. No I am not THAT stupid. However, lately a barrage of people have been asking me this question. I'm not sure why either. But it does make you just sit back and think.

So I have a weird relationship with a guy friend. So we act like a 'couple' and do 'couple' like things. So almost every Sunday night we have a dinner and TV show ritual or at least a TV show ritual. The 'couple' things we don't do. . . kiss. So we've slept in the same bed on numerous occasions and haven't done anything. That doesn't make it weird. Is he heterosexual you ask?? Yes, yes he is. Oh so that's what makes it weird. Because guys don't normally sleep in the same bed with girls they don't want to hook up with. So guys don't usually spend almost every weekend with some girl that they only want to be friends with. So normal guy friends don't just come and spend a Saturday night hanging out with your sister, mom, and nephew when they are in town so he could meet your sister. Normal guys would have maybe just come over and met your sister and just stayed for a bit and then left, you say. Normal guy friends wouldn't have called you at 1AM to tell you that they were sorry they didn't get to meet your sis the night before. Oh so most guy friends wouldn't just go to church with you on a Sunday when he's Catholic and you're Lutheran and at dinner afterwards tell you he's going to have to go a couple of more times so he can get used to it. Normal guy friends wouldn't answer their phone in the middle of a concert and then later call you back when they're still out and be chatty with you. But normal guy friends would tell you that they've ruined past relationships with girls because they thought they would always get back together with their ex (who just happens to be psychotic and a jealous freak in this case). Oh wait but normal guy friends wouldn't feel the need to tell you they're ready to move on, you say. You say, they'd just move on and quit spending all that time with you if you were just friends.

So YOU go to another city and visit a guy who's been calling you and seems very interested. So YOU sort of forget to tell your friend this. You don't have to because technically you're just friends with this other guy. And really your other guy friends feel you don't have to say anything because you really aren't anything, so you're okay. So then why do you feel guilty for just telling the 'friend' on Sunday that you went boating this weekend with some friends. Why didn't you just tell him you went with some friends AND with a guy who seems to really like you. So why do you feel guilty b/c you may or may not have kissed the guy you went to visit when you don't really feel anything for him. So the spark that you should feel for the guy who obviously likes you a lot, you feel for your 'friend' who you spend all this time with who may or may not feel the same way and be just as scared as you are.

So what you're saying is that I need to say something to my friend. That just seems silly. So you would rather go on never knowing what could be out there for us, you say. So you like the thought of not knowing as opposed to the rejection of the question that needs to be asked, you ponder to me.

So yes in regards to your question. . . I guess I really am THAT stupid. . .