Damn you Beyonce!

I always find it funny, not "haha" funny how the lyrics to a song hit you and then BAM!

Dean Cain and I haven't been friends in a long time. Basically I lost him as a friend when Josie died. The last few months she was alive, I started to notice little things. . . his lies, his dependence on me, and the fact that our friendship was one sided, with me being the one that was always giving.

I couldn't kick him off my Volleyball team this year even though I hadn't talked to him since Kickball got over with because some of the team members didn't want that. He was only a sub anyway. . . and by "sub" I mean he's only subbed once. . . the game I wasn't there. He played money to sub. My sister and I were talking about it this weekend and she said "Sometimes you have to let friends go. . .and sometimes they let you go. . . but in your case, I know it's something he's going to regret the rest of his life."

Recently, I was telling a guy friend my annoyance on how as our sub he can't get back to me when I ask him to actually sub and only gets back to me after I get a hold of another person on our team to ask him when she works with him. Then miraculously that day he gets back to me. It's not mature really. You're an adult. . . you made a commitment. . . how hard is it to respond in 24 hours?!?

Anyway. . . Beyonce's new song "Best Thing I Never Had" is starting to come on the radio now more frequently. . . and I've finally listened to the lyrics.

There was a time
I thought, that you did everything right
No lies, no wrong
Boy I, must've been outta my mind
So when I think of the time that I almost loved you
You showed your ass and I saw the real you

Which is soo true. My friend plays on a softball team with his ex, who he dated for 5+ years. She slept with one of his sport's teammates. . . numerous times. My friend had planned on proposing to her. Anyway, he said you just have to get over it and pretend he's not there. Which is easier said than done since Moon is really wanting him to be on our kickball team and went so far as to text him and ask him. I don't want someone there who can't respond to emails or texts about if he can play or not.

Thank God you blew it
Thank God I dodged the bullet
I'm so over you
So baby good looking out

I know there was a time when I was madly in love with him. I know there was this time when I thought his flaws were perfect. But it's true, when you start to see someone's annoyances, sometimes it's all you see and you can't get over them. Which is what happened to me.

I wanted you bad
I'm so through with it
Cuz honestly you turned out to be the best thing I never had
You turned out to be the best thing I never had
And I'm going to always be the best thing you never had

He's engaged now and getting married and as my Dad said "You fixed him." And he's right.

Sometimes I need to be fixed. . . :)