My Crush and other tidbits. . .

• I have a crush. . . I almost hate saying that. I do. I didn't realize I had a full fledged crush until one of my coworkers made the comment that I was flirting on the phone. You see, he works with one of the offices I deal with daily. And he is adorable. Except the last time we all went to happy hour, he had a girlfriend. Who lived 5 hours away. And he said it was a hard relationship to have. But as much as I talk to him through work, which is like a 5-minute work talk and then 20 minutes of us just shooting the breeze. He emailed me his phone number to maybe get together last Friday. And then I logged onto Facebook on Sunday and he had added me as a friend. He literally had to search for me on Facebook. I think that's cute. Or maybe it's stalkerish. Not sure. I'll take cute for now. I also noticed that he had no "in a relationship" marked on there. Maybe he's single now. I don't know. But he does want to take me out for my birthday on Friday since I don't have any plans because my friends are throwing me a party on Saturday. Wait, maybe that's stalkerish to look at his page. Man, we're both stalkers! I like crushes. Especially if they might lead somewhere.
• Also, I never noticed how some guy friends can become a little jealous even though we don't hang out at all or really talk anymore. You, the guy friend, who can't remember my birthday can in the middle of conversation remember the guy's place I was watching the Hawks victory at (and said this guy's name only once quickly) and say "Oh well, is this guy going to be at your birthday??" in a sort of tone. No this guy won't be there because it's my friends cousin who I am not attracted to and just went there to watch the game with her because I didn't feel like going to the bar, and he lives across the street, but I didn't find the need to tell him that. I find it funny that he used a tone with me.
• I think that Hollywood should do a big campaign that says "Do Hugs, not Drugs". In the last month, toxicology reports pending, some really young people have died for no reason.
• Have I mentioned I'm turning the Big 3-0?? YIKES!!!! Age is but a number, Age is but a number. . .
• I really hope that at my birthday no one in my family tells Dean what a dbag he is. But I would also find it funny.
• I'm looking more forward to my party than actually having my birthday.
• We right now have more snow than we usually have all year. That is awesome. And sucky all at the same time. But I do enjoy snow days!
• If people didn't have the weather to complain about, what would they complain about??

Happy Monday!!

Happy New Year!!!

It's weird to think that it's 2010 now. Do you say "twenty-ten" or "two thousand ten"?? I say "twenty-ten" and I don't know why. I didn't say "twenty-nine" that would have just been silly!!

I was reflecting back on the past year and while I know it was filled with one of the most depressing moments of my life, it also had some really good times. And I guess most of the times I look back on that were happy, and I cherish the most are the ones that I spent with Josie. I can never get those back now or recreate them, but I wouldn't change anything. This leads directly into my resolutions.

I always try to come up with catch phrases for my New Year's Resolutions like last year was "Living Fine in '09" or "Make everything great in '08". I can't remember what '07s was but I also can't think of anything that rhymes with seven. Anywho. . .

My new slogan is "Doing the best I can in 2010!" But now I'm thinking that it should be "Doing all I can in 2010!" We'll see. It's up for debate now. I know it sounds vague, but this is how I can going to do the best or all I can in 2010.

• I am going to live each day to it's fullest.
• I will take time to enjoy the finer things in life.
• I will take more chances in life, do things that I wouldn't normally do. Like if my friend calls me at 9pm and asks me to go grab a drink and I'm already in bed, I'm going to meet them for 1. . . in my PJs.
• I will call my college friends more.
• I'm going to start writing more letters.
• I'm going to read at least one book a month.
• I'm going to remember what it's like to love again. Love myself and love others and not stop myself from falling in love.
• I'm not going to look at the past with regret but look to the future with hope and move on.

Happy New Year everyone!!!

Oh and on New Year's Day I went and saw the movie Brothers that my little cousin is in and she did a spectacular job! I'm also really jealous that she and her mom got to hang out with Jake Gyllenhaal!!

The Big 3-0

Ugghh. I don't know why I am hating that number so much. And I can't believe in less than a month, I will be 30. *shiver

I will say what I do hate is when people make stupid comments about 30. Like when Dean and I were out to eat the other night and he starts to say something when talking about my birthday and then says "Oh never mind." And I said "What?? Just tell me." Because honestly, who isn't more curious when someone says that??? So he tells me how his girlfriend had said to him "OMG, if I am not married before I'm 30, just shoot me!!"

Reasons why this statement bothers me:
1) She told her boyfriend and guy she's only known for 4 months this.
and
2) She's almost 27.

So what I wanted to say to him was this "Ummm. . . you do realize then by her calculations either you will be her fiance or husband in the next 2 years or she's going to be shooting herself." But what I did say was this "I used to think I was going to be married by the time I was 30 and maybe even have a kid, but God has a different plan for me. Hopefully I haven't met my future husband though and really jacked things up already."

I remember thinking back about what my life was going to be like at 30. I was going to be a sports medicine doctor, more than likely living on Michigan Avenue, married, and possibly even have a kid.

I look back on those things and think that I made some pretty good decisions even though I am no where where I thought I was going to be. I chose to not go to Osteopathic School, but I got to spend time with my family and my Grandpas. I didn't settle for some guy. I'm saving money living in Iowa?!? :)

I will say that I am thankful for many things as I get closer to 30:

• I am thankful that I have a wonderful family-both immediate and extended that I am close to. I know some of my cousins who I am close with don't realize the awesome cousins they are missing out on.
• I am thankful that no one in my immediate family has passed away. I can't imagine not being able to call my sister or my Mom and Dad at any given moment. My friend Katie lost her Mom when she was 25, my friend Jennie lost her Dad last year when she was 30, and Jessica can never call Josie again just to chat. So while they sometimes annoy me, I'd rather have the annoyance than no annoyance at all.
• I am thankful that I have wonderful friends who I know would be there for me if I ever needed them. And I can't imagine that had I never moved here the awesome people I never would have known. (But again, I guess I never would have known what I was missing out on!)
• I am thankful that I am single, single and not single because I was divorced or widowed by the time I was 30. I couldn't live with that heartache of ever wondering if I'd get married again. Or thinking that I'd met my soul mate and then he died and I'd always wonder if I'd find true love again. That seems too heart wrenching.
• I am happy that I have a job.
• I am thankful for my health.
• I am thankful for life. My life.

I would of course be more thankful had say a cure for cancer existed because then I wouldn't be as sad sometimes. And maybe a cure for ALS, Alzheimer's, and Parkinson's while they are at it!

"Life is not measured by the number of breathes we take, but by the moments that take your breath away." --Author unknown

Happy Holidays!!!

I'm sorry all! You would have thought that since I was home on vacation all last week that I would have been able to log on and say "Merry Christmas!!!" to everyone, but alas, as I mentioned to my entire family, I never get to actually relax when I was home on vacation. I am always helping my parents do things around the house, dishes, and no time whatsoever to relax.

Every time I was up doing the dishes my Dad so nicely said "Hey guys, A is on vacation, she shouldn't be doing work." And you know what?? I'm going to remember this when he comes to my house in a few weeks. NO waiting on him. :)

I was happy to be home and spend time with my family though because I know too many people this year that got stuck at their homes and couldn't go home to their families. Stupid winter weather!!! And my nephew keeps getting more and more adorable. . .I'm not sure how he does it, but he does!

Happy Holidays everyone!!!!

Does anyone hate compliments??

I mean sure I hate backhanded compliments. . . but I mean, genuinely I love receiving compliments from people. . . but then this happened yesterday from a gal that works in my building:

"A-you are looking great! How much weight have you lost??"

My response "Thanks! It sure doesn't feel like it!!" You see. . . I haven't lost any weight. In fact, I think I've gained weight. So much for my "30 before 30!" But I digress. . .

When someone gives me a compliment like that, I feel inclined to give them a compliment back because in all honesty, it's not a true compliment. And maybe I haven't really lost weight but have just switched up my exercise routine so much that I'm reshaping my body?? I don't know.

Maybe I do in fact look like I lost weight but haven't. I mean, my clothes don't fit tighter, so that's good, but they sure aren't really fitting much looser. And I was wearing my pants that are really loose. Maybe that's the trick. Buy clothes that are too big for you in hopes that people will say you lost weight! :)

And on a completely unrelated side note: I was talking to one of my friends that I talk to rather randomly but always try to see when I'm back over the holidays or in Chicago. Ryan and I have been good friends since the summer of my Freshmen year and worked together for 3 years. And the last few years, we haven't talked like we used to since he started studying for his CPA and all. . . well we're talking about getting together when I'm home and he says "Well if we don't see each other this weekend, when will you be coming to visit Josie??" I had forgotten to tell him about Josie. He was soo sad when I got off the phone. How did I forget to tell him?? I don't know. I know my mind was crazy and all but still. I had forgotten to tell him. I felt horrible and he felt horrible because she passed away and he couldn't be there for me. He's not on Facebook either, so he didn't even know if people had written me something. Now I keep wondering who of my good college friends that used to hang out with her often also don't know??

Sometimes miracles do happen. . .

I would like to thank my bestest cousin (and good friend) H for being awesome. Words cannot describe her awesomeness.

I'm sure most people have had this happen to them. And I guess by people I mean women. This rarely happens to guys.

You know how you as ladies we find something that we love and then all of a sudden they no longer make it. Like lipstick? Or nail polish? This happened to me and Secret #55 at Victoria Secret. Which is a perfume and not a bra. I wear a few perfumes on a regular basis: Heavenly by Victoria Secret and Burberry Brit, and last year (or 2 years ago) discovered and fell in love with Covet by Sarah Jessica Parker. Well I'm that person, that once I discovered Gordman's realized that I could buy my perfume at discounted prices and it's the same thing as the department store. And I only buy the department store perfume if I am getting a free gift with it, so it's more worth the price.

Anyway, I went to Gordman's because I am almost out of Covet, and they didn't have it. So I checked back about every week for a month, and nothing. So then I went to Younkers and Dillards, and they don't carry it either anymore. I talked to the rep and was told they don't make it anymore. WHAT?!?

So about a month later as I use my Covet now only for nights out, I get the idea to check Ebay. And low and behold, it's on there!! YEAH!!!!! Well I don't Ebay, so I ask H if she can help me. And since I really didn't want to create an account and then create a paypal account, she got it for me. I love her. It's a 7.6 oz bottle. I'm hoping that will last me a long time! I'm wondering if I should just keep buying stuff on Ebay of it. I'm contemplating. . . but who knows. . . by then I could have moved on to some other fragrance. . . :)

Open Letter to Jason Segel

Dear Jason,

May I call you Jason?? Or Mr. Segel? Or just Jason Segel. Or former lover. Whatever.

First off, I would like to say that I love you. Or at least I love your character Marshall on HIMYM. I mean, I think I used to love you. I, at one time, especially (or not especially because it makes me sound like a perv) after watching Forgetting Sarah Marshall, thought, that maybe we could be together. Maybe, just maybe, I would have an intimate relationship with you.

But then. But THEN. I read this. Again. This is the 2nd time I've read this. TWICE. TWO. Numero Dos. I am appalled. I am shocked. I would like to say I am at a loss of words, but that has never been a problem for me.

Lindsay Lohan. Lindsay "I'm a mess" Lohan?? Really??? If you're that desperate, I will fly out to you. I will take a train. I will drive. Anything to keep you from her. Anything. I'm afraid you probably have a few diseases. And her parents sound and act nuts. You don't want that. Usually crazy is hereditary. Well at least your chances increase if both parents are crazy.
There is a chance that she is completely normal and just acts that way in front of the paparazzi. And that she didn't go off the deep end and is still headed there. But Seriously. I mean seriously.

Why oh why oh why???

I think that is all I have.

Sincerely,

Your maybe future girlfriend depending on your actions with Lindsay Lohan.